#I AM GODDAMNED ILL
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…when they bought out Nezha’s brothers…spoke of Ao Bing’s as well…
when they brought out Shengong Bao’s relatives…I knew this film was about to go off…
#Nezha#Nezha 2#哪吒之魔童闹海#like…#SHENGGONG BAO’S RELATIVES for his backstory of prejudice and underprivilege#this motivation moving that leopard was just…so insane#and then that celestial did that thing on purpose - chose that second trial ON PURPOSE#making his disciple do that UNKNOWINGLY to his own master’s FAMILY#I AM GODDAMNED ILL
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#all Ill say is that goddamn am I so glad I attended that tourney.. .#splatoon#splatoon fanart#splatoon oc#splatoon original character#original character#original design#oc#opal owl’s nest#kare-kare krakens
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I went to a drag show tonight and magneto was there



The performer was mercury divine
Im not gonna lie to you i saw this last night very inebriated and thought i was imagining it and so now that im Not Very Inebriated im very glad to find out this is In Fact real
#snap chats#this the sickest thing i ever seen if i bore witness to this id probably combust#LIKE OK work ……..#i have to keep looking at this to make sure its real My Friend you are so goddamn lucky#i hope you enjoyed the show !!!! i hear theyre a great time ….#oh but speaking of inebriated Hi Everyone i am awake and no longer playing rivals with kayla#She Did in fact make me almost want to rip my hair out but i mvp a handful of times so shes forgiven for now#this mfer just suddenly bails on me though like we were callinf when she suddenly just. doesnt answer me.#so THAT was rude >:( whatever ill live#esp knowing drag show magneto is real …#thank you mercury divine you divine bastard
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so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi prime defenders spoilers#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi pd#william wisp#vyncent sol#THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it.#BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece#i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW)#that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that#if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles.#open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho#BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses...#lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH#FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE#i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony#recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day#ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw-#-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM-#-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS#its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not#well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i-#-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!!#i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i
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Hello wtnv fandom if you exist hi
Also hello to my very small amount of followers yes i do exist I just forgor to post in forever literally only place I've been posting my art is in various discord servers 💀..
#welcome to night vale#wtnv#cecil gershwin palmer#cecil palmer#carlos the scientist#khoshekh#kevin wtnv#also tma jumpscare on the buttons i made lol#im not gonna tag them cuz meh#maybe later ill make a tma post but dont count on it too hard#anyway i am absolutely OBSESSING over this goddamn podcast#ive liked it for a while but just recently got hyperfixated..... gah
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this is a wip I'm not sure I'll ever finish but I do like the direction it was headed so posting it here still... was for lifestealtober day 28, possession.
A tug on his arm brought Zam to the waking world. It wasn't often he was woken up in the middle of the night anymore, one of the biggest benefits to his pacifism. But tonight broke that streak, with Mapicc standing across from him, still holding onto Zam's sleeve.
"Hi Mapicc," came his groggy voice, still catching like the rest of his body to Mapicc's wide awake form.
He finally blinked with the assurance Zam was awake enough to listen to him, saying exactly what he came here for, "tomorrow we're building together." He quickly stepped away, almost forgetting to drop Zam's sleeve.
Zam stayed awake a little longer just to watch and see what Mapicc was up to. It was clear he had no plans of leaving soon, seeing as he was shuffling through Zam's chests and pulling out several blankets.
Once he had placed them all on the ground near the edge of Zam's bed and began moving the nightstand Zam decided to stop it. He rolled over and patted the space next to him, an offer Mapicc instantly took up. It was a tight squeeze, but also not the first time they had shared a bed. Often it was out of necessity, and although you could argue this time it wasn't, Zam was sure Mapicc wouldn't agree.
He hadn't known about this part of Mapicc until season four, after he had betrayed Team Awesome, and had come back to fight against Pangi. It was something he hadn't expected, not when it seemed clear they only worked together due to the mutual enemy, but Mapicc had asked if he and Ro could stay the night, and despite his suspicions, Zam said yes without even telling Subz.
They pushed 3 beds next to each other, Zam's in the corner, Mapicc next to him and then Ro. There was a fog of akwardness that Mapicc broke through like a lighthouse, uncaring of the violent seas of Zam and Ro's mind's. Despite the clash of swords between them the next day, for this moment, they were really friends.
Zam smiled to himself, the memory of betrayal far away. Things were better now, the distinct lack of words between them a quiet proof. He pushed his head into Mapicc's chest, succombing to the pull to go back to sleep.
As the world faded, a rumble traveled through Mapicc's chest and his voice followed, "Goodnight…" Zam swore in the moment something else was said, but it was quickly lost to peaceful dreams.
#it was supposed to end with zam saying “goodnight my mapicc” when mape leaves zams house after spending the next day together#and implies that “my zam” is what mapicc had said this night#i am so incredibly ill about “my” like goddamn#rambles#devotion posting#lifesteal#lifestealtober2024#mapicc#princezam#writings
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i could've gone my whole life without learning about hector as more than the boyfriend-killer because what do you mean. what do you mean he was favored by apollo. what.
apollo who is the god of prophecy? apollo whose prophetic powers were a of gift of cassandra? fucking cassandra of troy, the mad oracle, sister to hector? cassandra who rejected him?
cassandra who was then cursed to never be believed about her visions. cassandra who saw her kingdom fall and her brothers die and her own murder play out. cassandra whose eyes were blessed and doomed but whose voice was denied. by apollo.
apollo who was supposed to help hector triumph. apollo who would rather let the seer be harked as hysterical and mad than compromise his ego. apollo who let even his champion be deaf to the prophecies of their loss. of his own death.
hector who was graced by apollo. hector, brother of all-seeing cassandra. hector who was denied the warnings of their fates by the god who was meant to guide him. hector, who his patron deity would rather let die and be disgraced and have his corpse paraded around his horrified, beloved city and leave his wife a widow and his son vulnerable to his own murder and his loving king-father left to beg the killer of his son for a cold dead body.
hector who was blessed by apollo to die a gruesome death before his doomed city because apollo would rather punish his sister than keep him alive. cassandra knew, cassandra tried to tell him, to tell anyone. apollo wouldn't allow it.
the hubris and wrath of a god always triumphs over their own favor. aphrodiate would rather her beloved son be miserable than concede to a mortal woman, zephyr would rather kill the mortal he loves than suffer the jealousy and shame of watching him with another god.
apollo who guides the arrow of paris to avenge hector but what does that matter? for years he kept their sister's words of warning and desperate pleas from reaching their ears, visions that might have saved him, warned him. but of course, the lives of a city full of mortals is worth nothing against a sliver of a god's pride. what the hell.
#“wrath is the first word of the illiad” tell me who's surprised anymore#i feel ill this is ridiculous#please correct me bc im sure there are mistakes here i havent finished the illiad in its entirety and obviously there are different telling#and a lot of my info is from fragments and second hand#but my god#finding out apollo was a patron or guide or whatever the hell he even was to hector felt like a slap in the face#WHAT DO YOU MEAN APOLLO FAVOURED HIM WHAT DO YOU MEAN APOLLO CURSED CASSANDRA WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNNNN#cassandra was a goddamn unit for not actually going insane because im over here about to lose my fucking mind just reading about this shit#am i tripping?? is this not batshit???? apollo is the reason no one believed the seer warning troy about their doom???#apollo who supposedly protected hector's body and in some versions helped paris kill achilles in revenge????? fuck off#al the irony.....all the parallels......all the tragedies.........gonna be sick#tagamemnon#omg first time using tag#apollo#cassandra of troy#hector of troy#my post#long post#greek mythology#the illiad#classics#bookish stuff
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ok. question.
ortega ended up hallucinating sidestep after they "died", but sidestep doesnt know about that. they know it got bad, but never the full extent of how their death affected them. so if your sidestep Did learn, if they found out ortega looked for them in every little piece they could, would that change anything for your sidesteps? would their relationship with ortega be any different?
#pulp speaks#Am i thinking of my “ortega sees sidestep posthb” fic again? perhaps#shameless plug btw yall should read it its called 'seen' on ao3 and i still like it#but anyway the important bits: ive been thinking about it with my sidesteps and its really interesting to me how different they are#but theyre all some variation of “i didnt know you /cared/”#caine is. uncomfortable with the idea#i genuinely dont know why but i do know that in the end their feelings on the matter are “whats done is done and im back now” with a small#“ill try not to leave again” mixed in#meanwhile cyrus is a deer in headlights over it#itd be way worse if he learned it when they met again- i feel like if he learned ortega was still that attached he wouldve left and never-#-come back. he would still want to Now but hes too tangled in his relationships and ortega is his /friend/ and leaving would just explode i#-his face‚ god Damnit ortega you son of a bitch‚ he shouldve just run. you werent supposed to drag him into caring about people again.#cecilia would have mixed feelings about it. i think shed resonate with it a lot for reasons she doesnt want to face#but it would also hit her like a goddamn Truck that he chose to move on/replace her rather than try get her back and its easier to get mad-#-about that than question her own feelings. but also maybe she could use this to her advantage? maybe this time he knows theres always a-#-chance hell come back for her next time. maybe. shes hoping there wont be a next time.#cynthias an interesting case because shes in love with ortega. deeply. but ortega /never came for her/ when she /promised/ and cynthia-#-is still furious about it#ortega hallucinated her in death but she couldnt put the pieces together and go looking herself? she cared enough to look for her but-#-not enough to save her?#she would still end up settling on bitterness for abandoning her but the information would shake her to her core#anyway. i think ortega should be used as a squeaky toy 👍#caine lynzal#cyrus becker#cecilia rider#cynthia garcia#ortega#sidestep#fhr
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Laudna & Delilah x "Soothsayer" (Haunted Like Human)
i don't entirely know how to describe this, but if i had more artistic ability, this would be an animatic. the laudna/delilah dynamic is one of my favorite things about campaign 3. so, featuring lines from c3 and what doesn't break, i decided to explore the manipulation, influence, and laudna's desperate need to be loved in an audio edit set to a fantastic song that reminds me so much of their dynamic. i had a lot of fun choosing the moments and weaving the dialogue with the lyrics.
transcript under the cut
if you like this song (or southern gothic/folk music), go tip the artist and listen to their other music! the whole album is so good (and very laudna). I'll link all of their information in the reblogs. also, buy the what doesn't break audiobook. it's worth it.
Transcript:
DELILAH: It is a cruel world. A terrible one, really. You yourself are so young, after all. But you have me, at least. I won't ever put you at risk.
LYRICS: When the dust first breathed life Child don't touch the fire Guess the ashes have called from the start
DELILAH: I can show you a way to keep people from hurting you. I can help you if you trust me. Just let me in.
LYRICS: In the chaos and calm Cut a slash cross your palm Promise blood, it poisons your heart
DELILAH: We have so much to do.
LYRICS: From the shadows of the crowd There's a hand reaching out It can offer the things that you seek
LAUDNA: Fun-scary?
LYRICS: There's a price to be paid But ain't that every trade? You're just looking for strength when you're weak
DELILAH: Come now, darling.
LAUDNA: I won't hurt anyone.
LYRICS: Oh you know there's a flickering darkness And it sings out like sirens to you
LAUDNA: I want them to like me.
LYRICS: Yea it's sickly sweet and elegantly violent But these debts that you take They will someday come due
LAUDNA: I don't want to be evil.
DELILAH: There's nothing wrong with being a monster, Laudna. We all have our roles to play.
LYRICS: Hungry hands reaching up Crave for more, lust for blood Bring the fattened calf and slaughter the sheep
Fingers wrapped 'round the crown Like they tore at her gown Who will die for the secrets you keep?
IMOGEN: Don't do anything with it, Laudna.
LAUDNA: I would never do anything without your permission first.
LYRICS: Oh you know there's a flickering darkness
IMOGEN: What're you doing?
LAUDNA: It's her.
LYRICS: And it sings out like sirens to you
LAUDNA: She won't let me let go.
LYRICS: Yea it's sickly sweet and elegantly violent
DELILAH: I'll take care of it
LYRICS: But these debts that you take They will someday come due
LAUDNA: I'm so sorry–
IMOGEN: No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!
LAUDNA: I don't know what just happened–
LYRICS: Ravens come like oracles Speaking in tongues And it sounds like a song That has never felt lungs
IMOGEN: You lied.
LYRICS: The thing that you hate Is the thing you've become Blessed are the words Of the soothsaying son
DELILAH: I know your heart, Laudna. I know you want to be good, that you want to be loved. You want people to see you for what you are: the monster they love.
IMOGEN: We're gonna get you–we're gonna get you home, okay? I need you to fight her.
LAUDNA: I haven't been able to fight her for thirty-odd years.
LYRICS: Oh you know there's a flickering darkness
LAUDNA: It's a cursed sword.
LYRICS: And it sings out like sirens to you
LAUDNA: I'll take care of it.
LYRICS: Yea it's sickly sweet and elegantly violent But these debts that you take They will someday come due
LAUDNA: I didn't lie to you. I've never lied to you.
LYRICS: But these debts that you take They will someday come due
LAUDNA: Do you still love me?
#laudna#delilah briarwood#critical role#me? fixated on my own goddamn hyperspecific imodna playlist? 3 full years later? more likely than you'd think!#this is one of the more out of pocket things ive made in a while#hyperspecific songs my beloved#let me know what you think i guess? ive never done anything like this before#maybe if this is a hit ill do more?#im not a professional either so im so sorry for any weird noises i was fighting with the critrole studio ac#obviously i own none of this and am not making any profit#cr3#audio edit#fan edit#imodna#imogen temult
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wait i just remembered being online is stupid & i hate it
#tumblr is the only 🤢social media platform🤮 thats even a little bit tolerable and even then............#this shit is rotting my soul out fr i am uninstalling the mf apps#like idk maybe im just an asshole but ill see people get so angry and up in arms about shit that literally does not fucking matter if you#just put your goddamn phone down. like baby is this an outside people problem??#u hear abt the new slop floppy drama?? did you hear what flip doopy said about mimi farkle?! 😱 heres an ad! heres an ad! heres an ad!!!!!!#like OOOHHHH MY GOD it is like sandpaper to my brain. jesus christ#i genuinely feel like i am on the fucking verge of a nervous breakdown#anyway. enough of this. i miss u vent app gone but never fucking forgotten#not detective pikachu
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going from persona 5 directly to persona 3 is an insane experience btw it’s like hey you know that game with the generally functional, balanced combat system and mechanics? this is it 2 generations ago. before they had taken out all of the stuff that sucked about it. have fun
#i ❤️ farming random encounters for a full hour trying to get the ONE CARD I NEED#i know this will be easier once the compendium unlocks. i know i am days away from the compendium unlocking#but i have SOCIAL LINKS TO DO GODDAMN IT#also im beginning to understand what you all meant about it being grindy as hell. because why are yukari and junpei still at level fucking 7#ok whatever. p4 was like this too at first i just have to get used to it ill be FINE#personal
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there's a self-help/mental health adjacent post that's going around and it seems to be really helpful for a lot of people which is very good. I also personally hate it with all my fucking heart
#it's the anhedonia one btw lmao#if i. have to be exposed to one more goddamn cbt-ass advice post in my life. I will start tearing throats out with my teeth#and I will have earned the right to because I've been through the fucking TRENCHES over the years man#I think it's the appeal to urgency at the end however ruefully humorously packaged that ohohoho. really grrrrinds my gears.#this is obviously not what the person is trying to do with that but the unavoidable implication that the reason you might still#be suffering is that you just haven't tried hard enough to change to like things to open your eyes... hey. respectfullly. fuck off#peak advice for mild to moderate symptoms of mental illness thoughtlessly presented as universally applicable#without any consideration for the deeper thing you're saying -- that if someone is in a real bad way and DOESN'T get better#it's their own responsibility and they just haven't tried hard enough. in trying to be kind you are being so desperately cruel#to the people who are struggling the most. bitch I am fucking GREAT at liking things! it's one of my best skills!! I'm generally curious!#my capacity for enthusiasm and intellectual joy over any old thing that strikes my fancy is legendary and often I suspect quite annoying!!!#so when anhedonia completely envelops me I know it's a sign of something else and bigger going on in the background#it's not a choice. the brain is not solely a cognitive machine!! you cannot fix everything that can go awry with it by Thinking Better!!!#cbt must be great for the people it's great for and I'm sincerely genuinely glad for it. less suffering in the world is great#but it is a way of thinking that is a hammer and you just have to hope like fuck your problem is a nail. because otherwise#you're bruised from being beaten with hammers and the additional shame of what's wrong with you that it's not helping#and again I recognize very keenly that this is not a space meant entirely for me. people sharing resources that amn are not about me#is not only fine it's good it's great! however. it'd also be nice to not get thrown under the fucking bus for once#because my presence fully expressed is an uncomfortable reminder of the things we *cannot* control about our own brains lmao#I'm lucky that I've been in the game long enough and have enough resources to start to smell the bullshit here but...#the pain 'losing years' induces in you when you don't have *a fucking choice* -- because it's not a matter of willpower#or positive thinking or changing your mindset. you're just sick. in a way medicine hasn't quite figured out how to help yet.#well. maybe. maybe don't put that on someone huh. maybe don't make their 'lost years' to depression and doomscrolling or whatever#'their own fault'. I kind of think that's possible to do without submitting to doomposting. is all.#(I feel the same about the 'resting vs. rotting' idea. well friend sometimes the best I can hope for is some gentle rotting#thanks for introducing this layer of disgust and condemnation to the general despair. it's added a patina)#this might actually be the first time I've managed to hold on to my own anger about this rather than it getting drowned out by shame tho#which as steps forward go. *sigh* it's not a moon landing is it. but a small step for man nevertheless I suppose
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help i cant watch it straight through without pausing im cheesing too hard
i know a lot of people remember the 'ur cute when u smile' bit but this is It for me personally
#i am actually watching:#ranma#basically the second 'an opening' is The Thing for me#only other thing for this season ill be looking out for is probably..#the entirety of the ice skating arc lol#for reference the other Thing i was most interested in seeing how they'd do was ranma's move vs ryoga (the circular one)#the goddamn fence#<- it's earned its own tag
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tonight I saw Sasha Colby 1. seductively roll down the steps of the stage while making full eye contact with the crowd 2. take a blunt from someone in the crowd, light it up, then blow smoke in some guy's mouth from the stage 3. get handed a hundred dollar bill, lick it and slap it on her ass. she rewrote my brain chemistry
#i think this is the closest ill ever be to seeing a goddess with my mortal eyes#i am....... in love......#trans women. are so magical. goddamn#lalou yells#fierté#dont getme started on therest of the show. i think this was the best event ive been to#top 3 at least
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hot take: if you don’t list physical activity as a requirement in your syllabus, you should not be able to make your students do it. even if they can speak to you to opt out, you should not be able to do that. because no one should have to fucking explain their disability or health issues or whatever to you for the sake of one singular assignment that you made up yesterday for a writing class. hot fucking take apparently.
#cas posts#i am SEETHING with rage#i plan my day around walking as little as possible#so that my body can function and i can get things done#and i should not randomly have it sprung on me that i have to walk somewhere and back#no one should#because that’s a ridiculous expectation!#and i don’t owe you an explanation of something that shouldn’t affect the course!#because it wasn’t in the GODDAMN SYLLABUS#and thank god she is a nice prof and let my friend change places#but what if she wasn’t?#this sets a horrible precedent#what if a prof wanted disability documentation a student didn’t have because getting diagnosed with chronic illness is really fucking hard?#i am so angry#im enraged#i hate this stupid fucking campus#got sent to the same building as the creep too#like thanks.#i don’t feel safe walking anywhere alone even in the daytime and this prof knows that!#bc this campus is full of literal scum!#but yeah this was a great idea.#and im sure we’re all going to get such good creativity out of it.#oh. my. god.
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#idunno what possessed me to draw this thing#i drew this earlier aaand now its 3 am goddamn!#“wait lilac is this vent art” dont worry about it for too long#this feeling will pass eventually dw its done this before#anyway uuh#ill get back on my avam grind later maybe#i dont know what to draw now#ill probably head back to sleep in a bit#lilacsart
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